sapphireblue.

Love at first sight ?

2011-11-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

I love love love you ♔

I've read many stories or heard from my friends about being struck by love at the first sight . Actually , at first I don't quite believe about that because I think it's impossible to love someone when we just met them . But today , something happened that makes me wonder about the real truth of the statement .

It's not like I ~~really really fall in love~~ with him but it's just that I was amazed and captured by him . There is this happy feeling when I talk to him .

Today , I met with my friends and we went to Times Square - ~~again~~ . So , when our way back to the LRT station from TS , suddenly there was a boy literally jumped to me . Before that , I already noticed that the boy already stared at me but I just let it go and still talking and laughing with my friends .

But what I didn't expect him to do is that he quickly went to me and almost like shoo-ing my friends away . He said he's making on an analysis for his practical assignment . So I was like okay . Then he asked me whether I'm a chinese and I was like no because I've already heard about people saying that I look like chinese .

Then he asked me again whether I'm a mixed chinese-malay and I said no , I'm malay . He laughed at me because he said that I'm cute and I really really look like a chinese to him . And then he explained about his assignment . After a while , he stopped and starts looking around . Then he asked me 'girls je ke ? Mane boyfriend ?' I said 'No . Mane ade pakwe,' he looks surprised and starts asking again whether I have a boyfriend or not . Then he asked me 'Pernah couple dgn chinese ke ?' because he said that maybe I look like Chinese because I've dated chinese but I shook my head .

He asked again whether I knew mandarin . And I said 'dulu minat lah mandarin' because he said that if I knew mandarin , I will exactly be mistaken as a chinese . Therefore , I just laugh at him and yes , we look like we're flirting with each other at that time . And then , he starts talking nonsense to me saying that he also single - something like hinting at me .

When I was writing my name , he asked me how old I am and I simply said that I'm 18 and he's like half shouting '18' . I said why and he said 'takdelah nampak muda , ingatkan high school' I was like what and laughed along with him . Then he asked me for the millionth time where I live and I said KL . Then how about hometown ? I said KL again . And he like 'oh' and said that he's from Sarawak . He then said that he sells something from their project and ask me to buy or not . He showed me the couple bear , saying that I can buy it and give to my bf and I was like 'mane ade bf' . Then he said 'okay , you beli . satu bagi you then satu lagi bagi I' haha . Imagined that .

Then I start looking to my friends , looking for a help because I really don't want to buy anything . And he saw it . He quickly said 'don't look at them , look at me' lol I was so surprised and starting to feel my face burning up . He then said, 'if you ade cermin , you mesti nampak muka you merah' and he starts to tease me about my blushing face . Then one of his friend come to me and ask me to sign at his form too and the guy quickly shoo-ed him and said to not disturb us . lol I was practically laughing really hard at that time .

Then he said that because I'm still studying , I can give him 10 dollars and he then gave me a cute key chain . After that I quickly ran to my friends and hide myself at a corner because I was really embarrassed at that time . Now only he knows my name but i don't and I feel it such a pity to not asking about his name because I bet he'll tell me for sure and might as well give me his phone number :p

Look , actually this is my first time to feel that way with someone who is different races with me - ~~not counting the korean~~ :p Because I thing it's impossible but now I doubt about it .

Oh yeah , then I asked oppa about this saying that I might have fall in love at first sight to a chinese boy and guess what ? That most-cruel-oppa said 'love first sight ke or ke-18 ?' Grrr . *glaringatsyamil . Yeah . He's cruel and he only cares about his soshi girls *pouted . I hope I can just forget about that boy who wears a grey shirt , with fringes to the side and has a cute voice and laugh . Oh yes , he's a chinese . Sigh , because I knew that it's definitely impossible for malay to be together with a chinese , sigh . But I'll sure that if I meet him again , at least I'll ask him his name :)

Life .

2011-11-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

the hottest bomb ever been made ♔

Okay , today I've decided to post a normal type of post today . Applause ! Because it's been a long time since I've post about my life . ㅋㅋ I don't know , it just between these three reasons , I'm being lazy , too busy or ~~being lazy again~~ :p But you're lucky today since I'm actually posting one right now .

So right now , I'm on the middle of my holiday . Well , you guys can consider it as a not-so-holiday-like since this is actually last for only two weeks . Sad right ? But what to do . That's the reality of being a matriculation student . Imagine , for each semester we only had 4 weeks of holiday . And we have two semesters , makes it a total of only 8 weeks of holiday . sigh , i just hope someone from the higher level with a human heart will change this ewww-rules .

Before the holiday starts , we had an exam . Our semester exam is called as PSPM , initials for Peperiksaan Semester - oh wait , I forgot it again :p 미안 ! The exam is actually very tough . We were given two weeks to study before that but I still think that it's not enough or we're actually not really into study on that week . Haha , but to study all 15 chapters for only physics subject is actually hard okay ? Even the matric students there thinks that physics is more harder than biology . *shrugged .

But what shocked me the most is that , me who never touches her books after 10 pm even during SPM can wake up at 3 am just to study physics . It's a miracle and it's really my first time to do such thing . Trust me , I have ~~never ever ever~~ woke up early in the morning to study . Therefore , I think that it's really hard to get a good pointer and I really need to work hard on the second semester .

Stupid ,

2011-11-04T18:47:00.001+08:00

Stupid Lee Minhyuk ; you should think about people's health before performing like that . You can get people like me died , you know .

Tears again .

2011-10-04T00:17:00.001+08:00

I missed this moment . When everything is perfect .

I don't want to stay mad at Junhyung . I've tried . I really am . But it just couldn't leave my mind . Because of him , the Yong Junhyung I adored really really much , I start to keep a distance with Beast . Keeping my mind away from Beast , more toward Infinite and Block B . Because of him , I've stopped completely listening to Beast's song .

But just now , when I'm working on my assignments , my room-mate suddenly turn on Fiction . Idk , but my heart suddenly gets sad and my tears feels like they were about to tear up . This may seems funny to you , but it's true . That's when I realized , how I missed Beast . But , that song really reminds me of everything that happened . They caused of why I'm being like this . Although I knew that they are innocent , especially him .

It may be ridiculous to some of his other 'die-hard' core fans or even K-Beauty . But this is the real me . A fan that still couldn't accept the real fact that he dated someone . I won't admit that I like him just like a normal girl liking a boy , because I don't . or do ? I seriously don't want to be apart from Beast and Junhyung , because I've like them from the beginning . I saw how Beast was born , and how they grew up . So , I couldn't just leave it like that for just a reason .

But even by just listening to their song , or even when intro . I felt a sudden feeling , felt something inside my stomach . And the urge of crying .This just can't be help . It's now like a disease to me . Even in my video folder , I seldom explore Beast's . Because I'm afraid that feeling my come back to me . I even feel bad to Kara , for completely hating them now . But I can't bring myself to like them now . I just can't .

I can't keep being like this . Because every time I think about this thing , it will end up with a big headache . Even when I first knew about the news , I end up with a fever . sigh . My mid-semester examination is just three weeks from now . I have to keep myself composed and keep this thing out of my way so that I can really study with ease .

He changed ?

2011-09-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

his recent picture .

I do think Junhyung had changed . First , he changed his hair cut . Then , the look in his eyes are different . I knew because it's been 2 years I have been following him . It just that , whenever I see his picture . The feeling is different . I don't know whether it's due to my own feeling or what . But still , Junhyung looks different . Maybe after his 'confession' , he's more brave and starts to act like "Hi I'm dating" what so ever. I know this is not good for me . Because I'm currently studying and this will somehow affects me . But still , it did anyway . And I can't turn back right now . It's just too late . sigh ,

I think some of his fans , even K-Beauty had finally accepted their relationship . But not for me . Me too . I just don't get it why I , even if a real Beauty who always say that she will give up something so that the idol can stay happy , couldn't . I just don't get it . Due to this thing . I started hating ~~Kara~~ . I gave all my ~~Kara~~ stuffs to my cousin who is currently a Kamilia . And because of this too , I stop stalking Junhyung's twitter which I always do every single day . Now , I start to pay more attention to Infinite . To Nam Woohyun . I don't want to stay like this , afraid that it will somehow turn out like what happened to Minho after his scandal with the announcer . sigh

Just before this , I bravely checked ~~Hara~~'s twitter . And it hurts really really much . The way she looks , I do admit it that she's pretty and all ~~plusbitchylook~~ . But still , they just . sigh . Even if I will be considered as a bad fan , I still hope that they will not last longer . Just like my friends said when they try to console me , saying that they will somehow end up like what happen to Jonghyun and Sekyung . sigh , just let me be a terrible fan just this one .

Kim Heechul , 희철아 ~

2011-09-01T00:23:00.003+08:00

Our Space Big Star , Kim Heechul will be enlisted into the army tomorrow at 8AM KST T.T

Exhausted .

2011-08-22T01:49:00.001+08:00

sigh . I thought that when I came back , I could relax a bit . But things are not going like what I've planned . sigh . I seriously don't have the usual mood for the upcoming raya . It feels kinda empty for me . Just imagined , even the preparation for raya is not complete yet . Everything is messed up now . But I can't blame anybody , everyone is busy right now . Everyday , when I'm not in the hospital , I would be inside all day . Doing the chores . As mush as I hate doing the chores , but it's the only way for me to lessen dad's works . Mom says that I should help dad and never let him collapses because if he did , the house will be in total chaos . sigh , mom you should really come back . The house is in total mess right now . Even I did tidy it up like you said but it still feels different when you're not around . sigh , even with fever , I can't tell anyone . I should force myself because I know that I'm the only one that can help dad since the others have their own life right now . and we still haven't decide whether we will celebrate it in johor or just celebrate it here this year . sigh . Will I be able to celebrate raya this year ?

Back .

2011-08-18T15:24:00.005+08:00

This is just a short note . I'm currently in the computer lab studying Science Computer . Just to tell you guys that I'm coming home to KL tomorrow midnight . keke . See you guys soon !

note : happy fasting !

Support Junhyung or betrays Junhyung .

2011-06-28T23:29:00.001+08:00

Junhyung . It is not like I don't support if Juhyung dated someone . It just too sudden you know . They said it's been a month plus . Means that he started dating Hara when I was just starting to feel the new life of a matriculation student . It is just not fair , to suddenly getting shocked by this kind of news , unprepared . sigh . I cried badly when I saw the news in Allkpop . And the pictures are just too heartbreaking . sigh , i really don't know what to write anymore . I should stop crying , I don't want to attend class tomorrow with swollen eyes . But I can guarantee that tomorrow , I might end up crying again . In front of my classmates . Because to me , it is much worse than Jay's case or anyone's case because it is about Junhyung . sigh , what should i do now ?

This news will not just stop here . Even if it's stop , but my mind will surely not going to stop thinking about it . My exams are getting near . But why do this news come at this kind of time . I'm afraid that I wont concentrate in class during lecturer . Omg . This is a total disaster for me .

I dont think that Hara suits with Junhyung . Well , you can say that maybe my reason is due to my fangirling to Junhyung . But Junhyung likes bad girl type , and Hara is nothing compared to bad person . She's just sexy onstage , is that even considered bad ? sigh , what should I do . I just can't think straight right now . I really need someone to talk about . I do think that my eyes are already a bit swollen by now . Surely , you won't see my usual cheerful mood tomorrow . Because that happened during Jay's days too .

sigh , someone please help me . I really don't know what to do . Junhyung is like my everything in this Kpop world . I just can't hate him for this . But I can't force myself to support this relationship , it's hurting me . And no one knows how much it hurts me in reality .

A month had passed .

2011-06-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

I can't believe it . The fact that . It had been exactly one month now .
It feels so different now . And I've become more matured now , becoming more confident with myself .

Thank you

2011-05-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

Well , it's already 12:47 AM but my eyes just ~~won't close~~ . idk but I really don't want to leave this house , this room . For 18 years , I've never apart from this room , almost 24/7 I will always here doing something . So I was a bit taken back when ever I think that I'll be leaving here . Tomorrow , according to my dad . We will be going after subuh to my aunt's house which is in Penang . And later , on Monday we'll go straight to my ~~soon-to-be second house~~ . sigh why do my heart feels so heavy right now . I truthfully don't want to leave everyone even though it just one year . But I really don't . With this limited times I still have before I go to bed , I want to thank all the great people out there that have been together with me . Enduring all the hardships and I sincerely apologize if I've made you angry before .

My dear classmates , don't you know . I still remember how this day was . This was the last day before spm . This was taken on 12th November , the day before my birthday . I really want to thank you guys again about the birthday song . Aku personally terharu sangat bile korang tetibe je nyanyi . sampai aku menangis pulak tu . And last year was the sweetest year I had gone through . Still ingat tak time kite gaduh sampai tak tegur ? lol that time paling kelakar . After that , one of us will apologize and yeah , we cried until our eyes are swollen .

Memang , tak pernah aku alami peristiwa macam tuh . Seriously , I thank you so much . Tapi now , everything seems different to me . Some of you are working now , some have made it to college or university . Tahniah aku ucapkan . But I do feel sad to think that we had gone to our separates ways and we might not have met again someday . So note dekat diri , few years later memang kena buat reunion tau !

sigh , I wish I still have the time to write more . I have been thinking about posting this and what to write since daylight . I thought that I will have to write for each person which is currently important in my list and thank them all etc . But suddenly , my mind ~~go blank~~ and I really need to sleep now . Since we have to wake up super early tomorrow . sigh , then this is it . So long everybody !

i love you , forever ♥

The two groups which are always together and sometimes fight .

Going to miss you , Comel .

The memories when we were in Lotte World , Korea .

And how cold it was until we have to cover our face .

Thank you , for taking me to my dream country . Korea .

Dreams

2011-05-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

One night , I dream about him . Not 'him' as if my ex , but the other him . lol ~~only my close friends~~ know about this . The guy that I have a crush for about 4 years now lol *~~startstosingDavid'sCrush~~ Wait ! I suddenly forgot what dream it was . ~~damnit~~ . But the thing is , he helped me . Oh god , I wish I can remember it back . But the thing is , I was so surprised when I woke up because I thought ~~I have given up waiting for him~~ this year . Because I don't think he feel the same way as I am since he have no idea about this crush thing .Yeah -.- . So starting this year , I try to move on and become one of his friend . So now , I keep asking myself whether I still like him because I think he likes someone else . Ohmygod , what I'm going to do ? I don't want to be guilty and acts like nothing happened . hmm .

But later the next night , I dream about a boy . I don't know this guy and ~~I don't remember his face~~ . I have no idea who he was but my feelings tell me that he was familiar . But he was so kind to me . sigh , I was really confused .

The unexpected .

2011-04-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

Many things happened today , and some of it is just giving me a headache .

1. So I skipped class for half of the day . My dad send me and Hazmida to the bank for me to open a new account to use it for Matrikulasi which means that I've agreed to further my studies there . While I was in counter , while chatting with Hazmida . We heard a familiar voice . I turned around and I can feel that my ~~heart stop~~ . There Adib was , with his ~~another~~new girlfriend . I quickly turned back at Hazmida and asked her if the guy I saw was really him ? and she said yes -.- Then I turned again to take a better look of the girlfriend . So we were like keep chatting about what just happened and took a few glances of the girl . Well , I think the girl kinda know about the tension , so the girl make a weird look to us . More like giving snobbish look . nottryingtoberudbutitdoeslookslikeit . When we were walking towards the door , I noticed that Adib was staring at me . I tried to be ~~nice~~ and smiled . But I guess my body is not in the mood that day because I think what I did was half smirk and half smile . Thanks a lot boy , you really made my day a bit interesting that day .

2. After that , I decided to go shopping at Sogo with Nadia since it's sale . When we were in the LRT . I heard people chatting in Korean . When I turned to my left , I saw two cute korean guys . Being a true kpop , I started to get excited . I keep ~~peeking~~ at them . I think they were aware of that since they will always laugh while keep glancing at me :P omg how i wish i had some courage to approach and talk to them like how I used to when I was in Korea .

and congratulations to f(x) for their first win !

The day has finally begin .

2011-04-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah . At last , I got something that I want to do . I was so ~~stressed~~ lately due to not being accepted into UPSI because that's my only hope for me to further studies if I want to become a teacher . Trust me , I do feel left out when some of my friends got the notice and went to their interview . *cryingriver . But look ! Matrik's result just came out today and I got accepted ! WOOHOO . This is a total miracle for me . I though that I won't get accepted anywhere . Like seriously . fuhhh . Now my heart can skip in peace . But in my opinion , the place that I got chosen is quite far , penang T.T But no worries , I have my aunt there and some of my friends gonna be there as well :) Ahahaahaa . But I'm afraid that I might not going to be too active in this kpop thingy again . So Syamil , I might need your help ! Just for one year only ~ *prettypleasewithtwocherriesontop :P But not soshi news of course , but junhyung's XD LOL just like doing me a favor , yelah kan aku banyak tolong kau .

But I feel so sad right now . I will be going this 23rd May . MEANS THAT I CAN'T MEET SUPER JUNIOR M ! omg . T____________________T And I can't start my business , have to do it next year . OMG , I hope time will fly fast . *blowstimeatthewind

A business woman ?

2011-04-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

To tell you the truth , I'm on the preparation to open ~~a business of my own~~ . I've found the supplier for the materials and my mom had agreed to pay some of the capital to start the business . It just that , it's my first time doing such things . And to add the things worse , I might get chosen to pursue my studies at Matrikulasi . Then , how will I continue the business because I can bet myself that I will be very busy once I start Matrik . The good point is that I can finally do what I really want to do three years ago . hmm , what should i do ?

Two celebrations in one day .

2011-04-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

J E S S I C A 정 수 연

and Syamil Izzat ,

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y T O Y O U

Are you serious ?

2011-04-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

Like seriously serious ? What are you trying to do . Cutting Astro ? What's with this sudden ~~pfft~~brilliant idea . Why don't you just cut it like freaking now . grrr . ~~Cutting Astro~~ means that I can't even watch kbsworld you . dammit . Just because I might not be in the house doesn't mean that you can throw away that stupid Astro dish . What's with that unifi thing can do ? Will it broadcast kbsworld too ? Can it , if it can . I will give tons of applause to the founder . Like in serious just like when you ~~seriously decides in signing up~~ in that nonsense thing . And thank you for ~~not~~making my day . in your dream ,

The kind hearted , Joker-nim .

2011-04-14T20:51:00.000+08:00

Just look at how Junhyung decided to stay a little bit longer on the stage . Just look at how he tries to make eye contact with g.na to tell her that everything is okay . And that brotherly smile , the fabulous hair and outfit . Yong Junhyung is really amazing . myhearthasskipabeatforreal

And counting ~

2011-04-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

What have you done .

2011-04-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

Stupid NHMedia , look what have you done to them , to Alexander , to Kibum and to me . I cried watching this video just like when I cried watching Jay leaving 2PM almost two years ago . I thought that I won't be crying like that again , but look . It's all your fault . Pffft , lacking talents ? YOU BISH . CALLING A GUY NAMED ALEXANDER LEE EUSIBEO WHICH IS A MIXED OF KOREAN , HONG KONG AND BIT OF PORTUGUESE THAT KNOWS 7 LANGUAGES A TALENTLESS ? YOU MUST BE DUMB . A SERIOUS OF STUPID COMPANY WHO ONLY KNOWS USING PEOPLE FOR MONEY . pish . yeah we already know that you've NEVER shares the money from the album sales to the members even during debut until now .

In memories

2011-03-30T20:01:00.000+08:00

2011' Ukiss : kiseop eli kevin hoon aj dongho soohyun

I don't want to be an evil fan who didn't show her support to the group even if the group undergoes changes . But when I was watching the new mv , I couldn't help myself from getting sad and heartbroken . Without the original members , it feels empty to me . Not because I hate the new members , but I just can't help to think how Xander and Kibum felt when the mv is released .

in memories : eli dongho soohyun kibum kevin alexander kiseop

Day 7 – Your dream wedding.

2011-02-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

*cough WHAT WEDDING ? *laughawkwardly Currently not dating with anyone so I still haven't think what my wedding would look like . But for sure , the color theme must be BLUE ! Because that is my favorite color !

*and sorry , yesterday I was really busy with my things and I have completely forgotten this thing :p

Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

2011-02-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

Well , honestly I really like dogs . Especially the one that is cute and little . I will always spazzing whenever I saw cute dogs at the sidewalk or when watching Animal Planet . sigh . But unfortunately Muslims can't keep dog as a pet D:

Day 5 – What makes you different from everyone else?

2011-02-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

greenishjoker

What makes me a different from everyone else ? Hmmmm ... Let's see , a girl ? XD Well , I have eye smile . You know , the smile where your eyes will close when you are smiling ? Yeah , I have that . And someone says that I look Korean XD LOL icantbelieveitmyselftoo

LOL , too lazy to post something XDD So Sorry ~

Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

2011-02-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

*scratchinghead XD

A picture of my best friend ? hmmm let's see .

junhyung's dk's dongwoon's XDDD

I really really like this picture . It was taken by one of my classmate . And yeah , this is my girl friends . We laugh together and cried together . This was taken after we had 'kursus kerjaya about doktor' at hospital . I missed seeing because one had left for plkn and i don't have time to see Khairiyah (therightone) even though we live in the same neighbourhood . XD so yeah . I really cherished this picture :)

Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.

2011-02-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

the innocent-predebut-junhyung

Date ? Well . Actually , I never had a real date before . So I don't know what it feels like to date with someone we love . For me , the perfect date is that me and my boyfriend will have a date on a theme park . Maybe like in Lotte World ? XD but seriously that place is really a good place to date ! *dontforgettobringyourdatethere xd Yeah . and we will like playing all the games there , he will play games and win the grand prize just for me , talking selcas using polaroid camera or in the photo booth . Just like in Lotte World , every couple will buy matching headband , sharing ice cream XDD yeah , that's how my perfect first date will be and I hope it will eventually comes true . *prayshard

Day 2 — Your favorite movie

2011-02-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

jun-moo-hyung

Uh . Truthfully , I am not into movie . So yeah . I don't really know what movie is best . But what I know is that Harry Potter 짱 ! And I will always follow my auntie and her family go to cinema just to watch Harry every year . But sadly , this year will be the last since it will end soon . sigh , our childhood story is gonna end . I . DO . NOT . WANT . because it makes me looks old :S

Day 1 — Your favorite song

2011-02-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

the-trying-so-hard-to-look-cool-junhyung XD

So , this is my first challenge . Well , for me . I am currently addicted to the Jung sister's Tik Tok . Honestly , I think that their Tik Tok version is more awesome and great than the original version XDD idk . But I really like Jessica's voice . And as for Krystal , well her voice is kinda like Sica's . So yeah . Have you watch the dance step ? It's really cool ! I'm learning them now :3

One more try D:

2011-02-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

I'm such a liar , I couldn't even keep my promise for the challenges D: 미안해요 Let's just give me a second chance . Okay ? *lotsofpuppyeyes

Day 1 — Your favorite song

2011-01-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

The infamous Yong Junhyung's smirk -___-

My most favourite song ? hmmm . Now , I addicted to T-ara's Yayaya . Because the song is really catchy and the concept is cute . I really love the chorus since Jiyeon did that :D

30 Things in 30 Days Challenge

2011-01-28T20:58:00.001+08:00

30 Things in 30 Days Challenge

Day 1 — Your favorite song
Day 2 — Your favorite movie
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.
Day 11 – A picture of your favorite memory
Day 12 – Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 13 – A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – Short term goals for this month and why
Day 17 – How you hope your future will be like.
Day 18 – 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex
Day 19 – A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – Who are you?
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you want to go.
Day 27 – What kind of person attracts you?
Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

I happened to blogwalking in here and find this topic really interesting and decides to try . well , wish me luck then ! :3

note : i will put junhyung's picture in every post that i posted . okay ?

sigh .

2011-01-23T19:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday , I finally met him at last and for the last time . And I'm happy even if I just see you from a far .

True . Or is it false ?

2011-01-16T00:31:00.000+08:00

What really happening to me ? I am very confused now . Well , everyone know that I really really like Junhyung . And he is my ultimate bias in kpop . I always think him as my favorite singer . The person who I always adored , always making fun of , always . Sigh . I don't know .

But after what happens that day makes me think again . That day , my friend suddenly ask , " Ko ni , suke die betul-betul ke ? Sebab aku nampak kau mcm dah jatuh cinta dkat die betul-betul " That's when it hits me . Hard . Do I feel like that toward Junhyung , Yong Junhyung , Korean's boy group Beast , rapper . I asked her what makes she thinks like that . She said the way I act towards him is like what a girl will do towards her crush . The way I will always stalk him in twitter , knowing who did he contacted with in twitter when it comes to girl . The way I will tend to get hurt and jelouse when he's near a girl . The way I will get nightmares the night after seeing his pictures with his ex girlfriend and rumours about him and Soomi . The way I will get uncomfortable when watching Hyuna whom I think is kinda near to Junhyung's ideal type . The way I will always get worried when Beast has the same show program with 4 Minute . The way I will always cry when Junhyung is in Malaysia but I still couldn't see him in person . The way I get moody and making a tear slips out of my eyes when two chances of me getting to see Junhyung in person gets taken away by luck . The way I will still fan girling about him even when he has the worst image or even when he still have his shaved hairstyle in Shock and even when sometimes the makeup makes him looks uglier .

It just too much . Even though I really like Junhyung , but I never realize that it will turn out this deep . What did this feeling is ? I don't know . And I know it's impossible for a foreigner fan to be with a singer . And to add the things up , we have different religions . So it's really hard . Junhyung , why did you make me like this ? Now I don't know what to do and what to decide . I really really really couldn't believe that it will somehow turns out like this . What should I do ? And I still couldn't understand how my friend could realize these things . Ahhh . It's so complicated . Trust me , I never ever imagine that I have totally fallen in love with this jerk .

But sometimes , when I have problems to think or when feels like crying . I will always hear Beast's songs , hearing his raps and eventually the tears will flow . Before this I still can seperate between reality and kpop world . But now ? Sigh . Someone please help me . Just help me how to solve this problems .

It is Seobie's day !

2011-01-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

Yang Yoseob .

Happy Birthday to you .

You're 21 now , so don't act like a magnae anymore ._.

Twenty Tenth . Goodbye .

2011-01-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hello Twenty Eleven , goodbye Twenty Tenth .

Twenty Tenth has finally passed . Many things happen through this one year . Some says that 2010 is their year , and some says that it was one's bad year . But to me , I'm thankful that God gave me a chance to go through all the bad luck .

Our last day before SPM starts .

I don't know why but this year seems really special to me . Maybe because this year is the last year for me to be called as a high school student and the last year for me to be with my classmates , teachers . To my dear classmates , we have been through all the hardships together for two years . I have treated you guys like a family , how we will fight together . Being as loud as we can even when the teachers are around , how some of us will cheats during the examination , how we will cried when one of us leaving the school . And do you still remember , Pn Ilazidah will always mad at us and makes us cried because we didn't act like we are supposed to be ? I do . I will keep all these wonderful events deep in my heart so that they will not vanished from my memory . Eternally .

Our last day of studying in class 5 Pure Science .

We are the best of friends . And yes , we do fight with each other . But that what's everyone gone through right ? Lumrah kehidupan , that's what people always said . And that what you have been too . But even when we fight , we will surely be back again . You can always see the three of us will always walk together , eat together . But now , it's all a memory . A beautiful memory . And I promised that I will keep that memory safely . sigh . How I wish time can be travel backwards .

Again , I'm proud to be the one of the first fans that start to like them since their debut . Because in this past one year and half , I can see how they fall . How the become strong and how they succeed now . And congratulation for your own first solo concert . Who have ever imagine , the group that was used to be called 'The Recycle Group' just finished their first concert a few days ago ? Haha . We , fans know how hurt you are to be called that way . Yes , it's true that each members came from different groups . Doojoon was eliminated during the audition of debuting One Day , Hyunseung was eliminated too before Big Bang was debuted . Junhyung was a former member of Xing . Yoseob is just a back dancer for Kikwang when he was a solo and Dongwoon was a long time trainee in JYP . But I'm thankful that all these amazing persons were gathered together to show people that they are worth to be a singer and look . They have their prove . And again , I'm proud to be called a B2uty for the Beast . So Beast !

Sapphire Blue Ocean , it's beautiful right ? Even though I have never been in one of this amazing ocean , but deep in my heart , I'm already there . Together with the other Everlasting Friends , supporting Super Junior . This year was a happy year for us . Even when there is only 10 members on the stage , even when Kangin had joined the army , even when Kibum is still absent from Super Junior . But I do feel the emptiness , the three empty spots that only fits for Tan Hangeng , Kim Youngwoon and Kim Kibum . I wonder what it feels to watch all 13 on stage because truthly , I have never see it when they are complete . But as the loyal fans we are , we still support them with all our hearts , chanting loudly with all our might when they are performing . Because we know , that's the only source for them to stand strong in these difficult situations . Even though this year was not Super Junior's year like what happen back during Sorry Sorry . But to us , every year is Super Junior's year . And we promised each other that this year will be their's too . Especially this 2011 because Leader and Heechul will be going to the army too . That's why we want to give them something special even though we failed to fulfill Leader's dream to win Daesang Award . But we will work hard because . We are ELF ! ♥

Tan Hangeng . One hurting year has finally past huh ? To me I still couldn't get the fact that you have left . It's like just yesterday you are playing with Heechul . And I'm even shocked when knowing how you suddenly disappeared after an award show in China . Really . That really is shocking to me . Although I look like greedy to some fans who have already move on , but how I wished you have never left . Never mention about all these lawsuit stuff . Okay , I admit it that I haven't move on . Yes , I'm not like that-oh-cool person . Even when Jay left , I need more times than anyone , more than real Hottest took . Even know I'm still missing Jay and it's true . How I wish you will just suddenly appeared at the doorsteps of Super Junior's dorm and said everything is normal again . Just look at you forever best friend , Kim Heechul . He is so not like the old Heechul and we know that you know him more than anyone have . So please , before he went to the army .

Infinte

ZE:A

I'm glad that I could know that even if it's not from the start and even if they are known as rivals to each other to some of the fans . But I love them . And it will always hurts me whenever I saw things like underrated singers in secrets because you know what , ZE:A is the most underrated one . You should see what they have been through even before pre debut and after debut and you will know what I'm talking about . Because only their fans know .

Nam Woohyun . sigh . What have you done to me ? I don't want to cheat Myungsoo but you forced me . But I am glad that I have finally admitted that I like you , along with Kim Myungsoo . Thanks to you cheesy proposal to Seungyeon , and your hard work in singing . But dear , please keep you health in a good shape . Don't just force yourself dancing and even jumping ? when you and your back are injured . Which fan wants to see their idol , with injury performing on stage even though she knows it's for her ? Please , be a good boy and stay at home . Don't worry , you can just ask Sunggyu to replace you .

Ten Eleven , welcome .

2011-01-01T21:05:00.001+08:00

As for now , I just want to wish Happy New Year .
The new chapter has just began and I am officially has graduated from high school .
And I know , I will be missing school and my friends as days passed by .
Happy New Year again ! and Happy Birthday to Lee Sungmin :D

Goosebumps . Touched . Crying .

2010-12-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

Thank To by Beast's Yong Junhyung and Yang Yoseob

*The one thing that I want to tell you the most
Always, we always singing just for you
Thank you , the one who's always protecting us by our side
You
You
It's You
You
Thank you
Thank you
For you

Just thank you everybody , thanks to ma fans
What can I say , I don't know if I'll be express my feelings but ,
I'll write one word at a time , and keep on writing ,
and try to fit it into this short track to try to communicate myself to you
The love and care that we have received from you , to the point that it's even flooding us as of now
I won't be able to return all 100% of it but
Still , I hope that you will be able to feel a part of it

Yeah , the one who let the unworthy , six fools stand on stage
the one who placed he utmost precious microphone into our hands was you, and so
Today I'm still rocking this stage , I'm flying like a g6
It feels just like I'm flying in the sky
Like I've fallen into a happy dream , like a child ,
flying through the air with our hands clasped you and me together

Repeat *

Even if I fond myself exhausted , as long as I'm with you
It's alright , it's alright
Even if we're being separated far away ,if we can feel each other
It's good , it's good
Even if I fond myself exhausted , as long as I'm with you
So fly , so fly
If your heart in front of me right now is true
Thank you thank you

Like a paper and pen and beat and mic
Even if we're being separated far way , we will feel each other in our hearts
Your so unconditional love
During this one year which has been so long and short , it seems like we've become pretty close
Sometimes you're like a blanket that envelopes me
You're like , you're like a friend , sometimes you're like one of my family members
Please stay forever by my side

Together, together ( Just to of us )
Let's create a hidden road like ( Columbus )
If I'm with you . Is there anything that I can't do ? Even if I fall 100 times , I'll be able to get up again

Always I sing the song for ya
Whenever if you want it
I'll sing for you like an ipod
( I'll always thank you everybody , let's go )

Repeat *

Seriously , this song really touched me . And to add the things up , Junhyung raps most of the part and yeah , that makes me feel more happier . I may be selfish or stuck up , but I'm proud to be one of the many first b2uty that had likes them since their debut days and I hope that it will continue . That's why , I feel goosebumps surrounded me when I heard this song .

Thank you to Yoon Doojoon , Jang Hyunseung , Yong Junhyung , Yang Yoseob , Lee Kikwang , Son Dongwoon . Thank you Beast . Thank you Beauty . I love you :3

Look ! I just found the teaser ! OMG SERIOUSLY ~ JUNHYUNG LOOKS FREAKINGLY ADORABLE .

but what's that thing on his neck ? I also found that thing on one of his recent picture .

unfair world

2010-12-13T13:29:00.003+08:00

sigh , the only way for them to hide their sadness T_T

I know that now , every ELF is complaining about how unfair the Golden Disk Award . Me too , also feel sad about what happen and why they couldn't win the most important award . But what should we do ? We couldn't just rewind the time that have just passed . It is not like I don't want them to win but still , we should start working hard from now onwards to give fullfil Leader's wish next year .

Jungsoo-yah , don't worry . Heechul is always will be besides you . Forever .

Idiot Teukie , thanking for us . What for . Are you that happy ? And why are apologizing to us ? We couldn't give you the Daesang Award and here you are thanking us ? You are an idiot . An idiot angel . Don't you know that all ELF already know what happen during that day ? How you cried on Heechul's shoulders and how the others cried at the end of the show . It really breaks our heart , don't you know that ? It breaks our hearts more when you still have the time to think about our feelings rather than your's . You are really dumb . Please don't be too humble anymore . Just let it out to us if you are sad and even when you are angry . Don't just keep it to yourself . What's the use of having so many members and us ? We are Everlasting Friends and we are your friends . But what's the use of us if you still keep all those tears to yourself ? Please , next time tell us okay ?

Just look at how bitter Ming's smile is , Yesung's gloomy face and how hard Hae is trying to hold his tears .

Super Junior , it's us who actually have to apologize to you . Because one , we can't fulfill your promise . Two , that's the only way to prove to the world that we , as a fan and a friend can do everything and anything that we could do just for you . But now ? Why is it like this ? Eventhough it breaks our heart , we couldnt't show much . We will still stay strong to support you guys . We will keep silent and stay strong together on your back even though the world betrays us .

We will definitely always be together . Super Junior and Everlasting Friends forever !

New story .

2010-12-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

The first chapter of my new fan fiction has completed . Feel free to read and comment my works .

Thank you :3

Author Hanna is back !

2010-12-12T15:32:00.000+08:00

Hey ! Many have been wondering about my fan fic right ? I'm so sorry if I have made you waited for long . But truthfully , I don't have any idea on what to write . Mian ~ But don't be sad , I have come out with a new idea and I'll be writing a new story . ke ke ke . Are you excited ? But first , I think I will just close my old fan fic and I'm sure I will gonna miss it . My new fan fic will be coming soon . So stay tune ~

눈물

2010-12-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

Yong Junhyung ,

Do you know that this guy here is not my bias when I first know Beast .

Well , I really don't pay much attention to him because he did not talk to much at that time and did not have much air time . But after I observe his personalities . How he always nagging at his members . How he have a hard time explaining something to his members . How good his raps . How he plays with the fancams . Little did I know , he started to grow in me . For the past few months after their debut , I struggled myself . I will always said that my bias is Yoseob . At that time , I still couldn't believe that Junhyung is my new bias . But I can still remember that fan fic . The fan fic on how it manage to make myself finally admit that I had fallen in love with this rapper . From that days onwards , my feelings towards him had grown deeper .

But , something makes me feel hurt .

A few weeks ago , I stumbled upon a website where they have posted Junhyung with his ex-girlfriend's picture . In that picture , they look really close and he looks so happy . And yeah , as a fan . I couldn't just get mad right ? I know that he never will know me and I will never get him . But I can't help that hurt feeling by just looking at the picture . To make it worse , it was stated there that the girl is the ex of Doojoon and Kyuhyun too . For your information , I really got shocked after knowing that Doojoon and Junhyung had the same gf before and how they look close and act like nothing has happened . It really touched me .

And there is a rumour that says Junhyung and Soomi are dating . At first , I was just 'pfffft wth' and just brushed it of . Because at that time , the only prove that they have is that they are wearing the same kind of shoes . Well , it is a coincidence right ? And it can be the shoes prepared by the stylist . So I didn't take any notice about that . After what it seems like a few weeks , I found out another evidence which it seems like a strong one . There is a fancam when Beast just won the chart . And there he was , standing right next Kikwang and behind him is Co-ed , Soomi's group . Junhyung was standing there while observing the fans . And suddenly , Soomi came right behind him and put a silver thing around his neck . And Junhyung ? Well , he just look at that thing and just let the thing hang around his neck . And that rarely happens because Junhyung is known with his cold and stubborn attitude and that really hit me . I start to questions myself , why didn't Junhyung throw that thing away ? And why did Kikwang looks at both of them with suspisious eyes ? What really happens ? Are they really dating ?

Is not like I hate Soomi or I don't want Junhyung to date anyone , but I just can't help to feel hurt and angry . And guess what ? I got so stressed about this thing and later that night , I sleep-talking . That is when I finally realized that I really really had fallen in love with Yong Junhyung . Hard . At yeah , I cried after that and all this thing still couldn't get off from my mind and it is still hurting .

A girl that I most admired .

2010-12-11T20:37:00.001+08:00

Park Jiyeon , how can you be so perfect . 

You are older than me by five months but look , how can you be more cuter and beautiful :3

You are my role model because of your bubbly and cute personalities .
I will always went 'awww-ing' when I saw your performance or even when you smile .
And silly me , now I even starting to act like the way you are , the way you will always shakes your body while talking , the way you laugh and even the way you smile .

I love you a lot .

5th Anniversary . Finally here ,

2010-11-07T08:25:00.001+08:00

Thank you , for everything that happened .

For this five amazing year .

Thank you , for still being together .

For this five amazing year .

Thank you , for still keeping your promise to us .

For this five amazing year .

Thank you , for still loving each other as much as you do like five years ago .

Park Jungsoo

Kim Heechul

Tan Hangeng

Kim Jongwoon

Kim Youngwoon

Shin Donghee

Lee Sungmin

Lee Hyukjae

Lee Donghae

Choi Siwon

Kim Ryeowook

Kim Kibum

Cho Kyuhyun

Zhoumi

Henry Lau

Thank you for everything , all the things you have given us ,

Happiness , Tears , Winnings , Friendships , Proudness , Dorkiness , Humbleness .

Let's continue this even after 20 years later , for real .

" UNTIL SAPPHIRE BLUE COVERS THE WORLD "

Shinee as Five . Not four . Thank you .

2010-10-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

Kim Jonghyun . If you really is dating that girl . I hope you know how to take your own responsibilities .

I want a complete , bright , energetic , shining , five member Shinee back . Or else ,

Just so you know , please think before you act .

Park Hyungshik

2010-09-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

So, a few days ago. I had a dream about this guy here named Park Hyungshik. and I was told by nina to share it in my blog. I don't know how to starts since i don't usually update about my dream. and it's pretty awkward, telling people your own dream.

Okay okay, i will tell you before nina starts nagging at me. In my dream, there are Hyungshik, Kwanghee and Minwoo. The three of them which i think have somewhat super powers came to my house asking my mom to stay for a few nights. And my mom allow them. Since I slept alone and my room is the second biggest, my mom ask them to sleep in my room instead.

At that time, I still using my queen bed. And I have given up my bed for the elders : Minwoo and Kwanghee. So, Hyungshik and I sleep on the floor. Then, after a few weeks, I think me and Hyungshik have develop into something ( i seriously can't remember this part at all, so mian).

One day, there's two unknown guy came into my room. They tried to kidnap me but I ran outside before they even caught me. But one of them blocked me and another one was holding a needle. They took my blood and ran away after hearing Hyungshik's shout. I started to get really dizzy and fainted not far from my bedroom. And what I can remember is that Hyungshik took me in bridal-style to my room.

After a few days, Hyungshik, Minwoo and Kwanghee went to the enemy's place to look what's they have been up to after they took my blood away. Then they heard one of them said that there's something wrong with my blood. and he also said, "Doesn't they know that she's pregnant ?" I don't know what happen after that. But later I was told by someone the news. Then I later found Hyungshik and we talked about that. After that, we kissed and Hyungshik promised me that he'll marry me. The end.

Ahh ! Really, telling you guys this makes me embarrassed. Truthly, I didn't know when we did it. It is just too sudden. Haha and don't look at me the wrong way. I never wish for that 'kind' of dream. And I'm glad that I didn't remember that part of my dream. But I'm happy that I dream about a very sweet and romantic dream with Hyungshik. and I wish I could meet him again in my dream. :)

Jiyeon here, Jiyeon there

2010-08-21T16:53:00.000+08:00

fdgsdgdjadldkdahd >.< how can she be so cute !

okay, so after what it seems like years have passed. i finally made up my mind and push myself to change my page in myspace. yay ! and how good and hardworking fan i am, i made myself a me2day using heekmah's tips. thank you but still, i can't add people. eotteokeyo?

haha. too much jiyeon here XD

i have been lied.

2010-07-11T12:53:00.000+08:00

i felt that i have been lied by you.

people said that you would come on the 5th July to send Kangin off.

even the media and the news came out saying all the members will reunite that day.

that's when i feel that i can see you, at last together with the others.

i wait and wait and wait for the school to be over, so that i can run to home to watch the fancam.

but guess what ? you didn't even turned up. it breaks my heart. really.

when seeing people or even elf bashing you in secret, really hurt me. but sometimes, i do agree with them.

even though i know or might do not know the real, true event that happens in the sm family that don't allowed you to fill the empty spot in super junior. but it's really makes my heart shattered by only seeing eleven people standing before the tearing fans.

i wonder, aren't you feel bad by what happen ?

can you at least, post some, wait at least a message of forgiveness for your absence in the homepage ?

i know it's not good for an elf to say this, and worse to her own biased.

but i am really sad because i put high hopes in this that you will appear but no. you don't

kibum-ah, did you know, in my super junior album.

there's only a little pictures of you. did u know why ? i just can't find pictures of you. new pictures like what every members had every day.

i'm getting tired by trying searching your newest photo. and why you didn't sign up a twitter ? just like what the other members did . i'm sorry for always comparing you with them but really. sigh.

if you say you are busy with your acting classes, and what makes jiyeon ?

i think she's much busier than you. this year, she did drama, movie, cf, sitcom, promotions and she's still a student. and now, she's mc for a new show. she's not a robot. she's a human being, like you too.

but why can she still be able to gather with her group in an event. seriously, i really envy them.

i do hope you won't repeat the same mistake next year, when teukie and heecul's time for army.

because i'm afraid, more elf will turn anti fans of you. :)

dictatedbyHee.

2010-06-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

this is why i love her, Heekmah. because we share the same phone and even have the same phone strap !

she's the silver one and mine the white's. now now, all we have to do is to find the pink and black ♥

13 is all I need the most.

2010-06-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

Thirteen.

Is such a beautiful number for me. It is my favourite number before I even know Super Junior. And making me like even more when thirteen being the symbol of Super Junior.

But now, can we still combine these two together ? Because Geng will soon leave them, his own brothers whom he had known for 9 years. And Kangin will be joining the army for another 10 days from now. Kibum ? Sigh. I don't know what actually happen to him.

Is the curse actually works on Suju ?

Why must it be all boy groups. I really can't understand it.

Geng-ah. Is this what you want ? To be able to do solo concert for your own. Far from your other members ? To tell you the truth. I don't want you to win at the court. I may have said this many times but it is what my heart keep telling me. It's hurts me whenever your news came out. About how happy you are now, enjoying your happy times at home. But did you know how much your brothers suffered ? Did you know how moody Heenim is last year. Always locking up himself in the room. He must have been the one who really feel the impact you have made because what ? Because he cares you the most. Because he's the one who pushed you in front of the stage, introducing you, the Geng that wears the mask when performing due to visa problems. Because he's the one who bashed people who's making fun on you in his cyworld. Because he's the one who put your name in his cat's full name. Because you are his best friend. You heard that, Geng. He really cherish you because only you know and understand his lame jokes. But now ? If you watch closely, Heenim is not the true Kim Heechul we knows four years back. He's the new Heechul who tries really hard to keep his true feelings a secret. Only Heebum and Bangshin know.

Kibum-ah. Is that really you ? It's been a long time since I last saw you. No. I never see you since I start liking you. All I did is watching your past videos. I don't know why or how you manage to make me fall in love at you. I should have stop liking you and move on to other members but I just can't. Everyday I keep telling myself that you, Kim Kibum is my favourite in Super Junior. I always feel jealous when everyone keep spazzing about their own biased in facebook or twitter. But me, who should I spazz ? I don't even know your current status or location. Please, are you that busy until do not have any time for your own group ? Look, Siwon also is very busy with acting and Leeteuk with MCing and DJing non-stop. But why can't you ? It's already two albums now. And I never saw you live in Music Bank, in front of the television. Only in youtube. Do you think it's enough for me ?

All I need is thirteen, so that the old Heechul will be back.

All I need is thirteen, so that the stage will be full again.

All I need is thirteen, so that I can finally spazz like others did.

All I need is thirteen, so that Super Junior still can be the biggest group in the world.

All I need is thirteen, so that my confidence in waiting for 8 years will not fade.

i really miss these precious moments eventhough at that time, I still not an ELF.

real.bad.mood

2010-06-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

reason : U Kiss is in Malaysia now. and she, a die-hard Alvin Kiss-Me won't allowed to even go to Sunway Lagoon.

5th July 2010

2010-06-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

Yongwoon-ah,
why must we be seperated ? i know that you will somehow go to the army like every korean guy will do.
but why so fast ? You just said to us like a few weeks ago and why the confirmation is too sudden ?
seriously, I'm too shock to say anything and i know that whatever i said here will not change the fact that u'll be going far from us.

I just hope that you are healthy there and hope that Boom can take care of you.
be sure to be a better Kim Youngwoon two years later kay ?

We'll meet again. For sure ♥

Dark Clouds !

2010-06-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

OMGODD ! i can't believe that i am falling with him again.
Thanks to Nina and Mira, for making me watch idol army again.
Jeongmal Gomawo~

At first i only watch the show until ep 4 and stop for a few month. but starting this holiday.
both of them makes me watch it again and u know what ? I'm falling with seungho again ! kyaaa~
why is the title dark cloud u ask ? haha. bcause seungho's nickname is dark clouds due to the dark circle below his eyes ! but i think his dark circle is pretty unique u know that ?

I really like it when he dance eventho most of the episodes he's not that active bcause he injured his rib. awww~
but when he starts to dance rainism, he is a TOTAL HOTTIE guy i've ever see.. well, maybe the scond after junhyung and minho will be the third since he's more to cutie XDD

but seriously, i can;t stop my screams when he dance. JUST WATCH it and let me know your opinion but dont try to take him. or YOU"LL BE DEAD.SERIOUSLY.

and his sexy wave ! *nosebleed*

fun facts about him. he failed in aeygo. trust me, the most far he had done is a rough 'HING' haha but still cute. it's okay sweety, just seeing your pearly white smile, your failed darkcircle and hear your granpa laughs makes me happy.

isn't he a cutie

Stop.

2010-06-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

I think I should stop liking them.
Yeah, I have a crush. Well, not a but two crush to two different person.
I dont know how but they have my interest. One is for being to cute and another for always been by my side.

But now, i think they are like escaping from me. Maybe they think i'm a nosy person.
That's why i think i should just step back a little. And maybe try to keep my interest to them low.
Maybe they will become friends with me again ? Yeah, I hope so.

To ♥♥ a.k.a A :
I know that u think that i'm so nosy. Always disturbing u and I'm sorry okay. It just that it's only u that i can think of if I had problem. I'm sorrry.

To ♥ a.k.a B :
I know that u're mad at me. That's why u didnt even talk to me right since that day ? i promise that i'll behave myself. Let's just be friends like old time okay ?

Hello !!!

2010-04-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

hey im really sorry sorry and sorry.
i'm busy with tons of exams. yeah, that's the life of someone who will be preparing for SPM.
you will go through this too.

i just want to say, for those who have fb as in facebook, u should add me bcause everynight i'll keep myself update there, and not here since my hp wifi didnt support blogger.

try searching Hanna Kim with yoogeun's picture on it. or u can try ask Heekmah or Lisa unni. they've add me.
i'm sorry. it's just that my dad won't let me lay my fingers on the laptop. >.< and it's hard for me.

luckily i can still visit allkpop or omona and watch youtube. thank god !
haha okay, better go now. so long everyone ~

and nina dongsaeng, i miss yooouuuu~~~

No one knows.

2010-03-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

As day pass, my heart getting hurt even more . . .

No one really knows what my heart feels.

No one.

Yong Jun Hyung !

2010-03-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

ohmygod, i still can't believe that Junhyung change so much >.<
from the nagging Junhyung bfore debut , to Yongjun hyung . and now what ? with that mohawk hairstyle ? and tattoo even more ?!

ahhh >.< i want that beautiful hair of your's again ! i hope his hair will grow faster soon !

Crush // crushed ?

2010-03-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

Today, me and my few friends went to Seminar at an all-boys school. Well, it's not just my school who came. There are diff schools too. The most thing I enjoyed today is I met my crush again after like ...... 3 months ? i think so. Haha, it's not actually a real crush but I just had this slightly interest with him. He's quite good looking and smart too >.<

3 months ago, during Dec, I met him at a tuition center because we both have some classes together. At first I saw him, i was like wow . But it only last for 1 month. Because I think he's an asrama student. Yeah, we both stop during the first month of 2010. But I can't believe the fact that we would actually meet again. You can tell that I'm still spazzing just by looking at him. And there's some times where our eyes met *-* lolol XD i look crazy ~

But it's not wrong to say all my feelings here right? after all, it's my blog. So who cares. keke ~

and omg, another 7 days until my hari berkabung. That's mean on that day, I did promise to myself that I won't go out :D but the day bfore is forgiven bcause I might going out with my friends to Pesta Buku or cinema. haha haven't really decide yet. too busy with all the extra classes. Thanks teachers ! *sarcastically*

Forever ?

2010-02-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

JYP, Taecyeon, Nichkhun, Wooyoung, Junsu, Junho, chansung . . .
is this kind of fate and reality that you all one ?
Making the fans that have been giving their all to you since your debut crying ?

I seriously ~~don't understan~~d it. Yes, I may still do not know what kind of wrong did Jay done during Again Again.
But as a brother you are, you must supports him bu not like this.
I just don't understand why you guys have to agreed of not making a comeback for Jay.
Isn't you guys said that you will be waiting for Jay during your winning speech ?
DONT TELL ME IT'S FAKE right.

bcause I'll be seriously mad and I might turn up as an anti for you guys.
I just hope the hottests that will be going to the meeting with 2PM on the 27th will succeed in changing their decision so that th eternal old pink man can still pursue his dream in singing.

stupid program.

2010-02-19T22:42:00.001+08:00

JUNG YONGHWA ! sleep on the street tonight for the rest of your lives if u dare to still wear that stupid couple ring !!

seriously .

Mad Anger State That Cannot Be Put Off.

2010-02-17T23:11:00.001+08:00

seriously all the fans.
i bet u guys have heard about the news Yonghwa-Seohyun pairing right ?
first of all. i'm not quite suprise or angry like most of your reaction.
it just that i hope the pairing will change to minhyuk-seohyun because they both have same birthdate.
exactly the same day,month and year.

but what i most shocked and change my feeling is that the netizens blame yonghwa.
the one who innocent and just following what his manager hyung said.
why did they have to freaking be mad at yonghwa for being seohyun's partner for wgm ?!
urghh. i dont understand their way of thinking.

and another thing, i know that seohyun is too young. but dont blame yonghwa.
because it isn't him who choose to whom he will marry..
it's all those ceo and managers fault plus the director !
stupid.
i had enough with the jay, kangin case. both is in my favourite group.
and now yonghwa. i repeat Jung Yonghwa ?! the one that i like .
plus, if u read the news. they state it there that the netizens comment during their first meet that lead them in the marriage.
so know. who's fault is it ? huh.

sigh, i really cannot understand u guys.
it's not like i'm a stand or something.
im a sone too. even sooyoung unni and ffany unni are my favourite.
but the way of your thinking upset me really much.
i know that both are innocent in this but you making such comments about yonghwa really makes me even angrier and might change my mind from not liking seohyun.

Muzik zik zik zik zik ~

2010-02-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

Actually, I'm not a person that will introduce her favourite song. But today I will.
Because I think this song is really sweet and the meaning in really beautiful.
It's from Secret , the group that Seonhwa is in it. ~~wait, did I spell the name correctly~~ ? :3
The song's name is Friend. And it's from the god drama. Yeah, the drama is superb !
and did u know that Seungho guy and his friend are cute ? And I really hope that Seungho will be with Jiyeon <3

okay, I just want to share the lyric so that you guys know what the song is about =D

I
Love you.
I am
Thankful for you.
It's only you I value,
that is friend.

Oh I love you my friend
I even know you by your eyes.
Even if it's hard and tiresome,
You're always next to me , my friend.

You're constant like the moonlight,
You're unchanging like the starlight,
My friend,
You are my friend.
Even if it's hard, let's always be together.

The time we spent together in school,
Sometimes we were tired and we fought.
We are like a pen and a notebook,
Full of empty spaces.
The boundless days will become memories like yesterday.
You are my friend by name.

Together waiting for the bus,
I saw you stick out your hand.
The gift of friendship,
We had each other's trust.
Let's not change, friend.
Only you, my friend.
Will you put your arms around me ?
I love you my friend.

When it's difficult, lean against me.
When it's painful, lean against me.
I'll definitely wipe your tears.
I come whenever, I'll promise you.
Never let go of the two hand,
You're holding tightly.

Even if time passes,
Let's not pass by each other.
From know on, let's know each other's though
By seeing each other's eyes. (in your heart)
Our harmony that has another colour like
Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do
Let's run together in a gym track.
Let's hold hand, no matter what happen,
Let's never get go.
Let's be friend that depend to each other.

Oh I love you thank you.
The person I'll be with for the rest of my life.
Oh I love you thank you.
I'll always become your strength.
Us two we become hard in this
love deeper than love, my friend.
You're my friend.
Let's be together always to forever.

I
Love you
I am
Thankful for you
I
Love you
To you.

* there, isn't it the most touching lovely friendship song ? I'm soo in love with this song XD
i think i might cry if i listen to this song alone :3

Greetings~

2010-02-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

Hello it's been so long.
School holidays for the chinese new year will going to end school. sorry for not posting earlier.
Because on Saturday, i suddenly caught a fever and it last until now.

Mianhae-yo . . .

2010-01-28T21:27:00.000+08:00

I have a news.
For those elf who are waiting for me to come along with them to the concert.
I deeply saying my sorry-ness.
Because i would not be going this March.

It is my own decision and no, i haven't ask my mom yet.
But i wouldn't do that.

The reasons why I won't be going is that :

I don't know. Maybe because there is no Kibum , and that's make me feel heartbroken.
And now, Kangin and Hangeng follow his path too. They too will not going to be present there.
I just don't have the might to watch only 10 people standing on the glamorous stage but yet feels so gloomy.
Yes, I know sooner or later I will regretting my decision but I'm sorry.

I just don't know what decision will I make.
I don't want to end up getting hurt and crying while seeing them pushing themselves. Trying to be happy for us.
I just couldn't. I know this maybe quite strange for me to say this because I just met them last year.

After I saw video of our forever-cheerful cinderella with puffy red eyes crying in front of us.
It breaks my heart more. If this can make such a strong boy in tears, why wouldn't me ?
Because I'm not that great in hiding my emotional feelings when it comes to the people I cherish.

I truly am sorry with all my elf-mates that are waiting for me.
You guys can have fun and make sure to tell me about the night okay ?

Changing . . .

2010-01-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

since the second week of school.

i think me myself is changing..
i dont know if the others noticed it, but

now i barely have my hyper mood like last year.
i easily have bad mood everyday, and then my mood will swing easily.
i dont know what is freaking happening with me.

maybe because of them,
dont know what my true feelings are, just a crush or something.
but . . .

can somebody help me to get out from this confusion ?
will you . ?

Youngwoon-ah ~!

2010-01-17T17:45:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you :)
Just for you oppa, i hope that 2010 will brings you a happy time.
and please quicken your comeback ! Can't wait to see you smile and waving to the camera again ^^

Bad Luck.

2010-01-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

Tonight, everything are miserable. Many things happen. well, it's actually happen just now.
Like this, me and my brother went to McD. and we decided to take the longer road because he dont want to pay =.= and after that, we couldnt find the U-turn where it lead to the nearest McD.

and we just drive until we meet Plaza Phoenix. wow, imagine how far we'd traveled. after that, we saw police and to add the things worsen, the police ask us to stop. he write something on a paper after he checked my brother's car and released us. after we finally met our McD. we went to the drive thru. and guess what? we both didnt bring any money == yay! another bad thing happen. so, my brother went to atm in the petrol station bsides the McD. and we finally get my Prosperity. so much happen only for 1 prosperty. seriously, the athmosphere when we get back is really really cold.

Short Notice.

2010-01-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

Hello. well, this is just a short notice before i'm going back to my hiatus mode due to school. i just want to let you guys know that i'm back in writing my fanfic. keke~ u guys can check it here.

Help me ?

2010-01-03T01:03:00.000+08:00

Today, i went to KLCC with my friend and my brother. we went to watch Alvin and The Chipmunk 2. after that, we went to Times Square to search for Super Junior's goodies.

no luck for me, because most of Super Junior's ggodies are sold out. but i saw some of Hangeng's picture. that really makes me sad. after two hours, i finally gave up and just bought a keychain. yeah, i know but i'll go there again.

in my way back, i somehow feels sad. the sudden urge to cry and feels unhappy covers me. only 3 months, only 3 months. if hangeng wins. after that 3 months, there'll be no such Super Junior's Hankyung. there's just only going to be Tan Hangeng helping his mother in a dumpling shop. and there'll no such thing as hanchul couple too.

i wonder, will elf end up become like hottest ? like what they felt now ? or maybe even sadder ? because this is what he want. i don't want anybody to leave again just like jay. jay leaving 2pm have broke my heart. and now hangeng wants to break it more ?

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yeah, this maybe my last entry. well, school is starting and i'll be having SPM this year. so, my dad would just let me use the internet during weekends. but since i'm so eagerly wants to keep update about hangeng, i hope my elf can help me by telling me what happens.

and btw, im using hangeng because there'll be no such thing as hankyung. hankyung is just for suju. that's what he wants right ?

heartbreaking ....

2010-01-01T15:07:00.002+08:00

if the court approves of the agreement, the earliest Hankyung will regain freedom is by March this year.

Yah ! seriously, do you really want to broke up with suju that much ? March ? did you know it's just a few months from now ! and are you really hate super junior ? didnt you said that you love them ? but why the heck did you do this ? please, stop this joke now . before everything is too late.

hangeng-ah,
have u wonder who'll be with heenim if you're gone ?
have u wonder what will his feeling is the day you're leaving them ?
have u wonder who will laugh at his crazy jokes that only you can understand ?
have u wonder who will ever dare to pranks him except you ?
and who will sleep with him every night ?

please hangeng, don't you believe in 13 ?
don't you believe in super junior ? and what about protecting super junior ?
and do you want to see henry and zhoumi to be abandoned just like that ?
are you really that cruel ?

remember this, there's no way 13 will exist without you.
and,
did you remember this picture ?

Pinky Day !

2010-01-01T14:22:00.000+08:00

Sungmin-ah, happy birthday ^^ how was last night ? did you have a good night with kyuhyun ? XD
did u guys drink wine ? haha okay okay. this is just a short post for you because i know norfy unni has made a long entry just for you =D my hope this year for you is that may you, Lee Sungmin and Cho Kyuhyun will be together forever ♥

yay !

2009-12-30T00:10:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was SBS Gayo Daejun. thanks to norfy unni, i can watch it online live. truthly, that was the most amazing show i've ever watch. that's really makes me feel better a bit. as usual, geng kibum and kangin are not there. but heechul is back. im happy that he looks happy and he's the mc too ! talking about mc, yonghwa is really handsome and shinhye is pretty too *-*

what makes me really happy was the you're beautiful parody by 2PM. at first, when looking at the promo pictures. we all thought that wooyoung will be Hwang Taekyung because he's the one that was holding pig rabbit. and nichkhun will be kang shinwoo. and junho will be jeremy because he was holding a dog just like jeremy does to julie. and and junsu will be go minam >.<

but NO! it's all wrong ~ the romantic cute nichkhun is hwang taekyung ! his acting is really awkward but funny for me. and lol wooyoung is minam. hahaa. it's really funny when they were all mistaken wooyoung as a girl except chansung. and poor magnae, his fall must be really hurt. haha

i wonder how kbs's gayo daejun tonight will be ? but i cant watch it >.< i have tuition classes ! and i have to missed the one and half hour of performances !!! it's soo not fair :x

Ok Daeri ~

2009-12-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday 2PM's Ok Taecyeon ~
yay ! i remembered your birthday ^^
but i can't believe that you are just 21 years old. with that beastly charm ==

Dooseob moment <3

2009-12-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

omg >.< dooseob is really true. just look how mummy yoseob is hugging leader.
they are soo cute ! yay for them . and magnae is soo hot and looks all happy when b2uty are cheering :3

stay strong.

2009-12-24T20:58:00.001+08:00

Dear all my elf girls.
i know this is hard for you guys, and this is hard for me too.
with kangin's hiatus , geng's contract , kyuhyun's hurtful comment and Henry's solo.
this is really too much for us.

but please, for our leader. park jungsoo
we don't know what is he doing now. maybe he's happy mc-ing in the show .
but we don't know his true feelings. right ? so, we must stand strong for him.
as a fan, we must support no matter what happen.

and please, are you guys really an elf ?
if yes, why are you bashing up kyuhyun just because he wrote his true feeling ?
just think for a few minutes. think if you're in his shoes, what did you feel ?
you must hurt really much right ?
being in super junior is his dream . and being with his hyungs is his happiness.
so, it's not wrong if he's mad with hankyung because he do not want super junior to break up or missing a member.

he wants super junior as thirteen like we do. he wants himself in the thirteenth spot, not twelve.
thats why he wrote such a post, you guys should thank him for posting such an honest updated.
if he doesn't post it, no one really know what this magnae is thinking. and he's just 21.
just imagine, a 21 years old boy standing in this difficult situation that even he never imagined it.
we should at least support him. it's not like we are agreeing him. it's just we want to relieve the anger that he had. thanks to your comments, he's now shutting down his only source of life.

and now look, suju-m will temporarily disband and henry will go solo with li yin unni. i dont know if suju will make it to kbs end year concert as thirteen. i know it will not gonna be thirteen because kangin is still on his hiatus. and whats about kibum ?
he's too busy with his jumunjin promotion.
and to our horror, we might be losing another one. or a few. or even a sad looking leader performing.

please stay strong and continue to support our boys because they really need someone who can stand behind them when they are about to fall ..
please, with all my heart, please.
this is what we are meant to be. a friend to hold when super junior need one.
this is what everlasting friend are exist for. to be the forever friend .

Flashback.

2009-12-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

this makes me feels sad. both kyuhyun and hangeng was there. and even teukie.

confusion.

2009-12-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

if i have to make a choice.
a choice between the two people that i love.
who should i choose?

the one who has a tender heart and will always cook breakfast for the members.
or the magnae who always dont have any respects with his hyungs.

who should i pick ? can anyone help me.

the one who elf afraid that he will leaves super junior.
or the magnae who is in anger and shuts down his hompy that makes elf worried.

who should i choose ?
can i choose both of them ?
can i want all fifteen members ? can i do not want they to break up ?

first, this year start with kibum not joining in sorry sorry promotion.
then teukie who seems stressed and unhappy.
after that, with kangin's two serious cases that lead him to put into hiatus.
and just another two days to christmas, this happen ?

this is a dream right? or this is just some of the rumours that the stupid-anti make.
somebody please tell me something.

teukie-ah, why are you closing your hompy, u should at least explain to us first.
teukie, heechul, kyuhyun. they all closed their CY. they must hurt really much now.
but we are too. we dont want super junior to be like 2PM.

kyuhyun might dont want to meet hangeng now. what will happen to their friendship ?
someone please tell them to stop. stop making things difficult. stop making elf worried.

Tan Hangeng will always be Super Junior's Hankyung.

Freakingly mad.

2009-12-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

Tan Hangeng !

what's really happening here? just two days away from my internet world and many things happen ? what's wrong with you ? what's with the lawsuit? do you want super junior to be like dbsk ? do u want elf to be sad like cassiopeia ? are u really our everlasting friend? please, at this moment, where we are hoping for kibum's return and kangin's case to be solve . please dont do anything stupid. don't you love your members? your dongsaeng kyuhyun ? please remember , super junior stands for thirteen. and 3rd place only stands for the only chinese member named hangeng.

seriously, i will not ever ever call you oppa again. or even ge ge until you tell us that this is all false.

You're Beautiful

2009-12-19T11:35:00.000+08:00

lol, i think me too have caught the fever every fangirls have because i so love this drama XDD if u havent watch the drama, u better watch it now or u might regretting it. individually, i think this drama is a combination of hanazakarino kimitachihe and boys over flower. and do u know what? im soo want to be in Go Mi Nam's position. and i'm a jeremy and shinwoo biased. mianhae taekyung >.<

Lee Jinki >.<

2009-12-15T10:44:00.000+08:00

ohmygod, really really sorry to you. jinki-sshi. i am so totally into You're Beautiful until i forgotten your own birthday yesterday. im so sorry. it may have been late, but :

S A E N G I L C H U K A E

Sorry Sorry - Answer.

2009-12-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

" Just before this, I had a phone call with Kangin. He was about to cry and said 'I miss you', and after the call ended, I got a text from him said 'Hyung, I'm sorry'." - leeteuk.

ahh XD they didnt meet with each other ? D:

anyway, this is just a short post to congrats My dear super junior who just won 3 award for yesterday's Golden Disk Award. and too bad kangin and kibum didnt make it.

and here, the lovely new MV for Sorry Sorry - Answer .

Happy Birthday, Choi Minho.

2009-12-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Choi Minho,
Happy Birthday to you.

yay, today you are officially 18 years old. u are not underage anymore. but still a minor in korea XD maybe now you are busy celebrating your birthday with Dream Team member in Vancaover. so, i hope u can celebrate it the second time with your beloved SHINee members.

ps: sorry, couldn continue now. it's late already. will update again. annyeong~

we got married ?

2009-11-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

hye guys, i am now back ! missssss mee? kihkih. if u wont, i'll make u do indian bap. XD in my earlier post, i told u that i will be back tomorrow. but, suddenly my dad didnt feel that well and he decided to go back today. so, here am i.

who are these guys anyway ? of course, it's shinee X)

and u guys might be wondering why the heck is jonghyun's picture here because i'm biased with only minho. fyi, today's main is jonghyun *claps* did u guys remember about my hoping so that i can dream about shinee again right? well, i'm lucky bcause i did dream about them. it has a connection to we got married show. u guys know right? so, i shouldnt explain the info of the show.

well, this wgm is a bit diff. it is between artist and non-artist. and i am one of them. i was married to jonghyun *also couldnt believe it O.O* we were chilhood friends so our parents decided to make us participate in that show so that we can find out our true feelings.. i know it is kinda musshy but i dont know why it happen too. and the rest of the members are participate too but i dont know who were they married to. but i do meet minho and i somehow be friends with him and maybe is a bit disloyal to my husband ? hahaa XP each couple are given a bedroom to stay but of course, they have seperate beds in the room. u dumb. i did ask for minho's room number but didnt have time to go visit him bcause my mom wake me up again T-T as for jonghyun, i remember that we just have some times talking alone, like getting to know each other etc. the only members i dream in shinee are minho, jonghyun and onew.

to Mister Swine Flu, why it has to be this little dancing maknae? although he is older than sulli and krystal. but he's still consider young like me. and why did u have to be infected by him . poor boy. now just left two members who hasnt been diagnosed by you. and i'm scared that minho will be infect too since he is the second youngest.

i really hope kangin can see this video eventhough he didnt know english. thanks to twelfs, they show what we
truely feel about kangin's case. for those who still didnt watch it, please watch it with full heart and in a quite
place so that your family wont be puzzled when seeing you crying.

credit to TwELFs

away~

2009-11-25T22:37:00.001+08:00

Hello darls. This is just a short note saying that i'm gonna be away for a few days. well, 3 days exactly. i'll be going to my village for Hari Raya Aildiladha and will be back on sunday. will be missing you guys and my plurky karma. D:

everyone, for those who still didnt know who this kid is. u guys can make a guess. it is :

our cinderella, kim heechul ♥ ♥

Ring Ding Dong.

2009-11-23T22:27:00.003+08:00

the reason why i post shinee picture above there is because today, i would like to tell a story about them. last night dream about shinee ! haha XD last night, my freaking first time dreaming about minho !! yeap yeap, i'm lucky :3

here's the story.

me and a few friends. but i didnt remember which one of them went to korea XD during night. and we arrive later that morning. so, we decide to go to shinee's apartment. when we go inside the house, their rooms are not like the present. everyone had their own rooms. and there's a unni inside the house. (i wonder who is it) i ask her where are they. she said usually they will sleep together in taemin and key's rooms. so i went inside the room and found out there's only key in there. and the unnie ask me to take a look. so i search for minho's room and found it ! (: and to my delight, i found three members there. minho and jonghyun are sleeping side by side, while maknae is sleeping above their legs. (how cute is that?!) i pull minho's hand while introducing myself. like 'annyeonghasaeyo, hanna imnida. we came from malaysia'. but they are super lazy. i repeat, really really lazy to get up, especially that minho == *pointing to the sleeping minho*. at last, after a few minutes, they give up and wake up. they later go to kitchen and i decide to cook some breakfast for them. but to my horror, minho's attiude is really diffrent from what i know. he doesnt have a single smile on his face. bcause of disturbing his sleep or what, but he seems really angry. while taemin just sit there smiling and puppy was blinking. but i dont know what is key doing. maybe sleeping ? but later, my mom wake me ==; and i couldnt finish my wonderful dreams. hope i can dream it again.

how did those 3 darlings diagnosed with H1N1 ? poor baby except for amber. i cant call her baby bcause she's older than me. looks like there will be no Chu ~♥ promotions :( hope they will recover soon just like jonghyun did. Amber unni, Krystal and Sulli, hwaiting !!

Sorry Sorry.

2009-11-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

This post is made specially for Nur Hidayah.

Daiaa.. sorry sangat-sangat sebab tak wish kau. aku tau aku ni kakak yg jahat, tak pegang janji >.< but aku busy sangat. kau pun tau aku busy pasal ape kan kan? sorry tau sayang. XD aku janji nanti aku bagi kau hadiah tau.

H A P P Y B I R T H DA Y ! !

Happy happy ~♥

2009-11-14T09:57:00.001+08:00

annyeong ! haha, thanks to everybody. yesterday was a happy day for me. yes, i am a forever 13. keke~ i shared the same birthday as my sis-in-law but couldn't get the chance to wish her because i lost her phone number T_T on 12 Nov, me with other 4 friends get the pizza vouchers because we participate in Star's Mag contest. and we decide to go during my birthday ♥

so, we went to the nearest pizza hut and order 5 personal pizzas. haha luckily we get to finished all. i noticed many customers all looking at us. haha! it's good to be famous sometimes. we went at 11 until 2pm. haha thats long~ before eating, we stop by at the bookstore and i buy 3 mags that cost RM12. i was like jumping and screaming at the bookstore when seeing these big poster of suju. many people looking at us, but who cares? it's my birthday after all. so, i have the rights to be that happy.

when i arrived at home, i pray and after i finished it, my mom ask me to go out again. lol. and we went to bandaraya to buy my present. my dad bought me a gold earings. mine was too old bcause i wear it since small. and we went to fix my glasses and eat at my mom's old office before went home. and we arrived at 6pm. imagine, from 11 to 6pm. that's why i fell asleep last night.

and many thanks to all who wish even when they're late or early.and my cute dad who didnt wish me face to face but instead using sms eventho we are in the same house XD

Daia
Diba
Hee
Unnie Aza
Fatin
Mama
Berg
Bro
Abah
Michelle
Kyle
Khairiyah
Liana
Husna
Pinocchio
Syamil
Mat
and everyone in dearkrystal and sjworld

*seriously, i don't know members in sj-world would actually wish me. i love u all ♥♥
*i'll post the picture in the next post.

Countdown

2009-11-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

i am countdowning. although it is still far, but i can't wait. there's a pressie that has been waiting for me to open ever seen this morning. it was given by my lovely daia. gosh, hurry let the time pass faster~~

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

ps: there is thirteen loves up there. and i like the most is the pink one :b

Heartbeat

2009-11-11T18:00:00.001+08:00

well, i've watched Heartbeat's MV. and my first impression is, i don't really like it. sorry to all Hottest JYP and even 2PM. but this mv makes my hopes go down. this is the first mv without jay in it. after what happen. so, i feel like this mv is kinda.. i don't know how to this. maybe i'm still not used to it. but, i really like their song of Tired Of Waiting. so, i'm waiting for their mv if they make one.

and the translation of the lyrics, she they mention is more like a he. well, you know who 'he' i mean. its jay. when i read the translation carefully, its more like they sing that to jay. i don't know. what you think ? and is it because the feeling of the mv or is it their face looks kinda gloomy ? yes. maybe when they're recording this when things happen.

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Saengil Chuka Choi Minhwan !

keke~ my true oppa. first, i can't believe that there is an idol that i like is having birthday the same month as mine. and, what makes me even more happier is, he's actually born 11 Nov 1992. gahh! really near to mine :3 he's actually 1 year 2 days older than me. keke~ yes, i've said this many times. but i still can't believe it. okay-okay. better stop now. so, oppa. take care of yourself ..

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and lastly, good luck at my two boyfriends who will be taking their exams tomorrow! minho-ah, jaejin-ah. you guys have to do well in your exams. if not, no date for you XD

Book Review 01

2009-11-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

ohmygod, i don't know why. but i'm so in love with this book. it was like the most romantic story i've ever read. trust me. you will like it too.

Will took the necklace out of the box and stepped behind Jennifer, fastening it around her neck. "you never know when you're going to need to buy a present for someone special." "someone special?" she asked in disbelief. "i don't know how you did it Red. you've gotten under my skin," Will whispered into her ear. "you drive me crazy! but you also makes me laugh and smile and i can't remember the last time i had so much fun hanging out with someone. i don't want it to be end after tonight." Jennifer wanted to pinch herself. was she dreaming? this couldn't be real, could it? Will was telling her the words she'd been longing to hear! "you don't?" she turned around, gazing up at Will from between lowered lashes. Will shook his head. "i don't. what do you say we try this for real?" before Jennifer could answer,Will pulled her into his arms and gave her a kiss.

kya ! i really hope i have a boyfriend like Will. because he is so gangster but yet romantic. and for your info, he's called the Heartbreaker until Jennifer changed him ! ahhh~

091106 Super Junior 4th Annyversary

2009-11-06T22:41:00.005+08:00

Park Jungsoo. the leader who is really happy but now is all emo-ish. he's the oldest among all 15 but don't u think that he's the most matured. he's so childish and often get bullied by his dongsaengs. people say that he should be in HOT. he's really is a good mc and always learn new things from his ssanti teacher, boom. he's now is desperately needs a gf and we hope he will get soon. and teukie-ah, don't cry because of boom. he will come back. we all know it for sure.

Kim Heechul. 83 gang like teukie. always call himself as cinderella. really like an aunt, have bad temper. like to shout here and there -_- different from other members because he likes cat more than dogs. has a cat named hanjaeheebum, heebum for short. is a mc too and actor. has a rough voice because he smoke. but now already quits smoking and drinking which is good for us. always tell everybody that he once have a beautiful face and his twin-like sica.

Tan Hangeng. when debuted, he had visa problem and always saw him on stage wearing a mask. so, cannot perform in many shows. when he is a bad time on shows, or getting bully. he always pretend that he couldn't understand chinese. always say that he is a foreigner = = has a very cute laugh and voice. is kind, not like heechul. but now he also know how to bully dear hee. yay ! go geng go, take revenge on the meanie cinderella.

Kim Jongwoon. pity him for not being able to show in tv. but now his luck is getting better . lol he's weird and u know what ? he has a turtle because he's jealouse of heenim's cat. loves to touch member's lips and thats really weird. he betrays his mom with black noodle soup. i love his hair in pajama party bcause he looks soo cute in the blue shirt plus white glasses. i love how he introduced his turtle 'ddongkoma' hahaha

Kim Youngwoon. this cute racoon. really loves seeing his white smile. eventho his body looks tough, but he has a kind heart. really likes his dongsaengs. always bully old teukie and likes to do indian bap. ahh.. remembering when he's playing thai massage with eternal maknae. psstt, he likes yunji unni and we like it too d: but now, his smile is gone. all bcause those stupid netizens.

Shin Donghee. people always think bad about him bcause he's fat. but he have his own fans! and i like him too because he's cute. always share the same lyrics with our anchovy. he became a trainee bcause he gets number one in gag contest. haha a weird way to become a singer. reasons why i like him; he's unique and know how to makes us laugh. eventho he's fat, but he is one of the main dancer.

Lee Sungmin. firstly, i couldn't recognise him with wookie when i first saw suju. lol the pouts and mouth is surely my favourite. but i don't like his image in akilla. freakingly weird ! he is cuter and act more childish than his dongsaengs. his attitude of keeping to himself when in pain really makes us hate it. he's a gentlemen, well not really. member said that he likes to act aeygo infront of noonas. haha but we like it so, who cares? really good in japanese bcause he took japan class. one way to describe him; cute cute cute !!

Lee Hyukjae. this is monkey but he called himself anchovy. jewel anchovy. he never buy something for his dongsaengs. have a gum smile and he though that he looks like wonbin. he's a crybaby like wookie. but it proves that he really loves his members. he's a baby. baby hyukkie of mama teukie. but we love it <3 he is one of the longest trainee in SM besides teukie in super junior.

Lee Donghae. fishy fishy in blue sea ~ haha this fishy is my fav fish. always so playful and like to go goofing around so much. i've never see him sad except bcause of his father. likes to watch english movies. share a room with teukie. he really is too much. he takes all/and is soo greedy. leedonghae ! stay away from kibum and minho. they are mine d: husssh husssh.

Choi Siwon. the only horse in super junior. but heechul always blame him. because he's soo gentleman. and his pure word -_- he looks so cute and young in full house. just listen to his childish laughter. but now he act so manly and smexy dark horse. i still prefer the childish one lol. he is soo into his gesture attitude. haha and we even called him shibrow. just looks at his eyebrows when his reaction changed ! and i couldn't believe that he is younger than hyukkie.

Kim Ryeowook. ahh the 'maknae' lol as if. actually he's not. but he really wants to be the maknae. so we called him 'eternal maknae' to make him happy :3 he's a crybaby too. i can't believe that he is the same age as my second brother. and did u know that he likes to wear shoelifts just to makes him looks taller like others. bcause he's the shortest, keke~ ohh.. i suddenly remember about ddabong ):

Kim Kibum. my love ! haha stay away from donghae, honey? you are only mine. just the property of kim yoora. hehe~ kibum-ah, where are you. and you know what, your new silky long hair is awkwardly weird o.o now he's back in his form like 2 years ago. maybe 3. he is skinny again. maybe he join heenim's diet war. keke~ but no kichul X a big no no! you cant take hee from geng. he will be really really sad. and he might get revenge by asking rong rong to bite heebum. aww~ poor little cat. don't you like heebum ? i know you do. just like me XD keu rae. we really are meant to be.

Cho Kyuhyun. kyuhyun-ah, i wont talk formal to you. don't you like being like that? tell your pumpkin to stop making that pouty face. i cant resist it. this maknae, the one that took wookie's position. but he really like being like this. he can smake or fool with the hyungs whenever he like. he said because he's the maknae and everybody loves him. a long time ago, when he first entered suju, he doesnt even have a single bed for himself. lol haha and he always telling everybody that he is handsome and genius. he act so matured in front of everybody. matured maknae a.k.a meanie maknae.

disbanding

2009-10-29T23:25:00.001+08:00

well, i write this when i was having my bm paper on 26 october 2009.

i'm in class right now. yes, i write this during exams and will post it later. ahh.. when waiting for time to over, i keep thinking about suju. what would happen kangin, to teukie. really feel helpless. do u ever wonder what will happen to ELF if suju disband one day ?

i'm afraid. afraid of the word disbanding. but i believe, one day. the day that we all fear will come. like what happen to H.O.T and maybe one of them will be like Heejun? really dont want to think about it. but i cant stand it anymore.just look what happen to Kangin, to jay and to dbsk. especially kangin. no one knows what his future will be. is it good or bad? but to us, his fans really want him to be in suju again.really miss his shiny smile. his wobby dance. Korea #1 racoon! we really miss you. please appear again !!

wonder what is he doing now? is he practising for their new album.i hope so. coz i dont want him to just sit there do nothing. because i dont want him to think something that arent really good to hear. only god knows his true feeling.

and teukie, whats upe with him? all emo-ish. hope he finds girl that will suits with him even if im jelouse but as long as he's happy again like lleteuggi.. go go away emoteuk !we dont want you. really like an old man, old man who have unbalanced mood.

hahaha, my paper has no where space to write anymore. keke~ tata.

emo

2009-10-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

today, i really feel ~~exhausted~~. can't stand it anymore. why do they have to be like this? making promises that they won't be able to keep it? kibum-ah, where are you. at the time i need u most. you weren't there. are u want to be like them too ? like my parents ?

before this. they say that they were busy with their works. but now, after retire. why it's till the same. today i'm being an irrespectful daughter. yes i know but i really couldnt stand it. locking myself in bedroom with books. and went out when only needed. i'm ~~not~~ like my usual self. not as hyper, as talkative like yesterday. just a simple answer when asked. i bet maybe they notice it too. because you can't see a single smile on my face. only a blank ugly face of me.

aah, why did my life like this. i hate it . when i'm little, i just left this thing behind. not caring it soo much. just playing happily but now. why they have to treat me like that too? im not young anymore. i already grown up now. really irritating.

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actually, i want to post how my first day of learning bike. yes, with my father. but today's condition makes my mood away. hope tomorrow is a happy day when i meet my friends. thank god i still have them and all my ELF plus super junior. ♥

hiatus,

2009-10-24T22:33:00.004+08:00

gahh XD guess what? i saw nickhun today. hoho not in person (i wish it's real) but in tv. well, its like this. when i was watching channel 707 *couldnt remember the name* suddely our puppy face showed up. lol its the CF of thailand. and i was like all fangirling in front of the tv. imagine me staring and smiling like idiot at the tv. thnk god there's no one in the living room. only me and tv. hahaa~~

i'm sad to say that i would be ~~away for two weeks~~. because my end-year exams are starting this monday XD i will be missing all of you *blow kisses* but don't worry, i still will online late at night. because i'm worried that i won't be having updates of kangin. and i will on my plurk too. so, my plurky gang. meet me later. keke~ and and i will still be in sjworld and dearkrystal. u can still comment me in my cbox. if i have time, i'll try to reply back.

* really like this pic. wonder when will we see this smile again? D:

** heekmah, unni will on ym just after exams can? i'll inform you kay?

*** wish me the best of luck buddy~

Memories.

2009-10-20T23:30:00.006+08:00

Exploration of Human Body.

i will remember the show. the show that we all love to see. because all of them is participate despite kyu's injury is not fully recover at that time. and thanks to this show. and Full House too. it really did bring me to liking and starts to believe that im one of the ELF. kamsahamnida.

Super Junior in Malaysia '06

and the video that i put. really really like super show version for believe. they were playing happily without worries. and yes. they're still thirteen. 13, i really miss that number. and my birthday is getting nearer. only a few weeks left. so, my wish this year is. hoping that kangin's case is over and he wont be banned from super junior. and all 15 can perform on stage again. that's what im hoping for even if it's in korea and not in malaysia.

Kangin.

2009-10-19T08:51:00.002+08:00

ahh jinjja. the ~~netizens~~ are out of their minds. whats wrong with kangin that makes him looks bad.

"My name is Kim Young Woon (his real name), and I am a college student attending Kyung Hee University."

even when Kangin said his real name and didnt say that he is a singer is wrong ? like seriously, Kang In is not his real name. Kim Young Woon is. i repeat Young Woon. in police station we should say the truth right? that is what he's trying to do. telling his real name. is that wrong ? ~~stupid~~. why did u guys soo hating him ? because he is well-known but you guys don't ? netizens are really getting too far. and u said he's hiding his own identity? are u guys crazy ?? to tell u the truth. before this i still dont know what is the university kangin in. u think it is easy to just revealed your identity . huh?!

i bet it takes him hours to think of what to say to the police before he went to the police station. yes, he knows that he's wrong. that's why he bravely went there ALONE. if you, would you go there alone? u must bring you parents too right? huh. please dont make laugh. you are the one that are afraid, chickening out. kangin is brave. if you are a mother who are one of the netizens, u should go ask your daughter. i bet she is in our team eventho she's not an ELF. but she still can think about human rights. still can think all idol is a human too. but why did u think idol cannot make mistakes? because they are animals ? do u like when u hear if one of your family are called animal? we too. dont like our family member, kangin to be treated like that.

so now, u will not be seeing kangin in televisions or anywhere. SATISFIED? are u satisfy with what you are doing.? making your own neighbour like that ? dont u forget. kangin is a korean too. if u say that he is a whatsoever, so you are too. because you guys are same. dont point at me. im a malaysian. but still, im still stand behind him to prevent him from falling. that is what ELF over the world did. aren't you feel ashamed? because a teenage girl who doesnt even reach her 16 can think straight like that but u can't.

so, netizens. please think what u have did to that person. Kim Young Woon who already put off his idol image and apologize sincerely to us, koreans or not sincerely. please, we don't want the kind of situation that happen to jay repeat again. right ?

A Walk To Remember

2009-10-18T22:32:00.003+08:00

i'm losing my mind now. after i read ninna's blog, really have the urge to post. it says that these netizens are having a petition to make kangin disband from super junior. this really breaks my heart even more. why did they have to be like this? don't they know that kangin is a human too? well, maybe all fans will be making reasons whenever their idols are in danger. but please, for once. as a human being he is, must he have to be treated like this? every human makes mistakes. thats what people are saying, parents or teenages. but why kangin cannot makes mistake? he is a HUMAN too!

i know that he hits these taxis. but he apologize didnt he? don't you, for an idol even an apologize is a big thing for them. maybe you dont know. because you are not even an ido after all. you just one of the netizens or maybe antis that happy when the person you hate are in this kind of state. just like jaebeom. that's your first success right? and now your aim is kangin . am i right? dont say that im wrong.

but please, think twice before you even click the petition. think if your child or family is kangin, what will you do? will you just sit there and clapping your hands watching them suffer? don't you know, not just ELF are supporting Kangin. look at them, Cassie TripleS etc. they are the real friend. you should learn from them before you can even be friend to others. i as a malaysian and teenager, is ashamed on you who just acts like they know everything and even telling everybody to help people in need. but NO. so stop your acting, because no awards given.

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SJWorld - A Walk To Remember.

you know, sddenly i want to re-watch this fanvid. this is the third time watching it. maybe because i'm too missing Kibum and Kangin's smile. and their sweet memories of being 13. even when the song start, my tears are already flowing. because i've been missing them too much. just a blink of an eye, all these moments crash. Kibum is busy with acting. Teukie with his emo diary. hyukkie who seems to makes himself like Teukie, all emo-ish. and Kangin. why it have to turn out like this? where is all of them. SJM is busy with their new album. and they are busy with upcoming concerts too. but did they really happy? did they think of their hyung, who maybe now is locking himself in a dark room. sitting at a corner, crying by himself?

urghh. i should'nt have post all this. because now i'm crying again. i thought maybe after jay's case. i need to start a happy life and wont cry again when updating my blog. but why did i cry now??

Kibum Oz Generation

2009-10-16T22:22:00.001+08:00

i was crying when i saw this. the voice that i miss badly.

so this is what he works hard for D:

Kangin.

2009-10-16T17:43:00.004+08:00

Kangin ah,

why are you like this ?! can you stop making problems. you just making us more worry at you. look at you now. your assault case haven't finish yet and now you had hit someone. no not one, but 3 peoples . and that happens right after donghae's birthday. don't you know what will he feel ? his hyung, is drunk, not respecting the laws, driving and lastly, hit a taxi.

and what will happen to you now ? you know right how is these ~~antis~~. they LOVE to see the idols that they hate to be in this condition. but, you have to remember. that you will always have us by your sides. eventho i'm mad at you. but i will support you no matter what. that's what EverLasting Friend for. supporting Super Junior no matter what they did.

but really, now i don't want any ' kangin news ' again. you have caused much trouble. and we really don't want another.

Fishy Birthday.

2009-10-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

Super Junior Lee Dong Hae ♥

Happy birthday to you oppa. Hope that you will always stay happy and hyper. keke~ We know that you always be missing your dad. But please don't be sad, your dad is happy up there. Because he knows that you have been granting his wish that he wants you to make it come true, that is becoming Super Junior's Donghae. We don't like seeing you all crying because it breaks out heart too.

and Donghae, please don't be too greedy and steal all my beloved. you have Hyukkie don't you. and now you also took Minho and Kibum along. why ? keke~ haha. please stay strong kay ? and happy always.

Nal Saranghae, Fishy Donghae <3

2PM 7-1 = 0

2009-10-11T20:33:00.004+08:00

eventho it is just a fancam by a fan, but i really thanked her for sharing with us.
and i read at the comments that the one that shout Jaebeom's name is mostly other fanclubs. not just Hottest but all fans from different groups. i can see the loves from them. gomawo, jongmal.

the members look tired. they must have been so depressed. yah, who's not when their hyung's left them. okay, sorry for raising up this again. and their hair are all long and its like they dont want to cut it.

but i wonder, is KHottest really there?